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Shattered Star
07 June 2014 @ 12:09 am
I promise that I haven't died! A lot of good things have happened to me and I'll try to do a real update this weekend. :)
Shattered Star
04 October 2013 @ 09:18 pm
I have been plagued with thoughts of the future lately. Its very weird. I've been thinking of things like future jobs, marriage and having kids. Its weird to be old enough to actually be thinking about these things.

I still feel like a little kid, even though technically I'm pretty much a grown woman. I even have bills and other adult things!

I don't know, but I feel like I'm not old enough to be this old. If that even makes sense.
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Shattered Star
29 August 2013 @ 01:19 am
I know less than Jon Snow.

It has been an awful day. I had a conversation with Russ about my life and he said a lot of things that cut deep. But the horrifying thing is that he is totally right.

I am not doing well at this whole life thing. I haven't been in years. And honestly, while I feel significantly better emotionally living on my own. I'm not at all good at it. I'm not good at saving money, or remembering to do things or keeping simple things in my house.

I don't even have TRASH BAGS. And as a result of that I haven't taken out the trash.

I have to step up or things are going to go poorly for me. But the thing is, I'm not even really sure how to. There's so much that I've never had to deal with before and its all immensely overwhelming.

I just don't know how to do anything, I feel like I never did.
Current Mood: worriedworried
Shattered Star
16 July 2013 @ 11:21 am
I'm moving into my new place very soon, with my new roommate- who is in fact very nice. I'm nervous though. I've liked living with Russ. It hasn't been perfect, and sometimes we do things that really bug each other; but I think that we've both enjoyed our time together.

I've started working out again, even though I've fallen off the wagon a bit. I worked out every day for 2 weeks. And then Russ' parents came to visit last week and I haven't done any purposeful exercise. Anyone have any advice on motivation/making healthy choices?

I went and got a physical yesterday, the doctor was really nice, and they are even finding a psychiatrist for me! I'm really excited about that.