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I'm just really not feeling it today. Its gray and rainy too.
Another day, serving ungrateful people.
Another day, serving ungrateful people.
Current Mood: 
depressed
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Four Shattered Stars: Finding Philadelphia
Shattered's Journey through her Freshman Year of College
05 April 2012 @ 05:23 am
You know, its really stupid when an upsetting conversation keeps you up all night. Because really you only have one option when you're done crying about it.
Instant replay.
You know you're not going to resolve the situation overnight, so your mind decides to become your own personal torture device- reconsidering the situation that sparked the upsetting conversation from every possible angle. The problem is, you've done that already; A million times without coming to a satisfactory solution for anyone. And you're stuck in this miserable time loop until the sun comes up and life gives you something else to do.
Instant replay.
You know you're not going to resolve the situation overnight, so your mind decides to become your own personal torture device- reconsidering the situation that sparked the upsetting conversation from every possible angle. The problem is, you've done that already; A million times without coming to a satisfactory solution for anyone. And you're stuck in this miserable time loop until the sun comes up and life gives you something else to do.
Because even when you have things to do, you're not going to do them if only for the sheer reason that its currently 5 o'clock in the morning.
Current Mood: 
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blank22 March 2012 @ 10:17 am
Well, everyone. It's official. I've withdrawn from Drexel University and am returning home to go to NoVA Community College for the next term. It was an intensely difficult decision to make and many tears were shed while I was making it. But, the bottom line is I was miserable at Drexel and I really wasn't doing well in my classes in any way.
My current plan is to go to NoVa for the Summer Semester and go to Virginia Tech in the fall. That is, if I get in. I'll find that out in May. If not, then I will go to Radford, if I get in. If not its NoVa for the Fall and reapplying.
This whole situation stresses me to no end. I feel so embarrassed and like I failed massively. Everyone tells me that this isn't the case, but that's not how it feels to me.
Russ has been an absolute angel through it all. I'm actually at his house at Virginia Tech right now, visiting for what would have been my Spring Break if I hadn't ragequit Drexel. I'll really miss Philadelphia and one or two people that I met while I was there, but it seems like its best not to dwell and move on.
But, it does kind of feel like I'm back at Square 1.
My current plan is to go to NoVa for the Summer Semester and go to Virginia Tech in the fall. That is, if I get in. I'll find that out in May. If not, then I will go to Radford, if I get in. If not its NoVa for the Fall and reapplying.
This whole situation stresses me to no end. I feel so embarrassed and like I failed massively. Everyone tells me that this isn't the case, but that's not how it feels to me.
Russ has been an absolute angel through it all. I'm actually at his house at Virginia Tech right now, visiting for what would have been my Spring Break if I hadn't ragequit Drexel. I'll really miss Philadelphia and one or two people that I met while I was there, but it seems like its best not to dwell and move on.
But, it does kind of feel like I'm back at Square 1.
Current Mood: 
awake
awakeCurrent Music: The Washing Machine - Dormtainment
07 March 2012 @ 02:17 pm
Please, watch this video and join the fight to stop Joseph Kony from committing his awful crimes against children! He MUST be arrested!
Current Location: United States, Pennsylvania, Philadelphia
Current Mood: 
determined
determinedCurrent Music: Ladies Night - Kool & The Gang
